Guidance

I would like prayers for guidance in my life. I know the Lord as my Savior and am forever grateful for that, but I am struggling. Ever since one of my very close friend's passed away almost 2 years ago I have been struggling with my walk. I have been bitter and just don't feel like God is there for me. I am also having a really hard time with the deep desire of my heart to have a husband and family of my own.  I feel like my heart has been hardened and I don't want to live like that anymore. I also need guidance as to what to do with my life in general. Currently I'm at a job that doesn't make me feel like I am fulfilling my purpose, nor God's. I want to be able to live where I can experience God and love what I do rather than feel like I am not needed.  Thank you for your prayers as they are very much appreciated!