Strength

I am running out of strength to fight what feels like a daily battle. My job is not going well but my job history has not been going well in the last 2 years.  It’s been a long year of unfortunate events. My husband won’t work due to social and mental issues.  I want to keep my commitment to God in my marriage. I feel like that no one will help me.  I can’t afford insurance, and have no time to try to get him disability without losing my job. I’m out of money and out of time but I have stayed faithful to where I feel God has put me. I have to do bible study every morning to stop crying, I’m so tired of crying every day asking him to please hurry and help me. I feel like I’ve done what he commands, yet I’m falling deeper into despair. My car needs tires and it stresses me out so much that there is nothing I can do if something happens to them. I’m rambling but I feel I have no one to talk to and I needed to vent, I just need someone to be praying with me, I don’t want to give up.