I don’t know God but my Mom has always believed in him.

The 31years old and have tried for years to help myself by counseling and medication but i finally gave up a couple of years ago. Now I haven’t been able to leave the house (I live by myself) in over a year now. I panic just thinking about going to the door. I can’t even take my trash out because i can’t go outside. A years worth of trash is living inside with me. Anxiety ridden so bad that I’ve not showered or brushed my teeth in over a year. My long hair is literally matted to my head and very painful. My hair at this point would be impossible to comb it would have to be shaved completely off. My hair hurts my scalp so badly. My teeth and gums are painful. I don’t think there is a way out of this it’s too late. I get angry about hearing about God but I don’t know if deep down I believe in him. I don’t know if I can find a real and believable God in the Bible or not. From what I remember from growing up i just looked up the verses so i don’t really know what to expect or how to read the Bible. I don’t have a Bible anyway. If prayer is real would you give a try for me?