Hope

I am asking for prayers for myself, and my family. Our daughter was born premature and spent some time in the NICU, since being home I spend a lot of my days in hospitals and clinics with her. She is medically complex. We love her and everything about her so much. I find myself more angry and frustrated these days, angry about her diagnosis and how unfair it is. Why would our God allow such a thing to happen to an innocent human, my baby?  She has a condition that restricts movement in her body and her arms won’t move. Everyday lately I watch her cry in frustration because she wants to play with things and can’t. My heart is broken down and I don’t understand why her. She was just admitted to the hospital for another illness and I am defeated. Between trying to care for her, our other child and struggling life and finances with it all. I am convinced my family can’t ever have a break. We deserve some sort of peace in our life and I feel God has forgotten about us most days. I know that is silly and I know that’s the devil trying to beat me down but it’s so easy to be deceived when it feels like life is hitting us daily. I just need prayers to remain hopeful, for my family to have some sort of peace and for myself to stop being so angry with God.