Family

I truly need prayers for me at this time. My family and I are separated as I’m at my parents house currently. I have a problem with gambling and I have put myself through depression after depression and just find it hard to believe that there is a reason for me to continue with my life. It really makes my heart hurt when I know what I have done has hurt and affected my children also. I have come to the point where I can’t stand the holidays anymore as I have to go through them without my whole family being together. My kids do come for a little while at least but my wife doesn’t. It’s all because of me. In the meantime, I struggle with not being able to get things for my kids and knowing their Christmas won’t be like it should be. This puts me in a deep state of depression and mindset of wondering what’s the point of continuing on in life. Knowing that I can’t get things for them like their friends will be getting things as gifts. They are great kids and deserve so much but yet their father has failed them. I just wish something would happen and God would take this burden off my shoulders and find a way to make it better for my kids and myself. I need a miracle for my children, my wife, and myself. A Christmas miracle. I need it for my kids most of all because they should not have to do without because of me. This is what I ask the Lord for this Christmas if he’s willing to look down upon a man in struggling times and pull me through this whole situation.